Shin,
I don't understand why.
I'm pretty sure I don't like him anymore.
But when I see him appearing around me,
I'm annoyed.
Of course,
my friends didn't notice it.
And I didnt' tell them.
I wonder how should I tell them,
and no reason for them to avoid him because of me.
But seriously,
I'm annoyed and
how i wish he totally disappear from my life.
Especially when he approaches my friends in front of me,
without even looking at me.
it sucks! maybe I caused this to happen,
but I hate him!!!
I hate myself too!
I dont want my life ruined up by him!
And somemore,
this is not the one that worth me putting so much effort on!
no matter it's love or hatred,
it's tiring!!!
Shin,
I'm bad, don't I?
But this is how I feel.
These days my mood was just ruined up by this guy..
I wonder I can still treat him as a friend or not...
Ish!
If this is the thing, then im sure u haven put him down totally. You still have feeling towards him, but u are actually trying not to see that. But maybe u confront this feeling directly, then you will be cleared. You may just want to be friend with him but when u see he ignored you, you are angry. I think you either still have feeling towards him, or you just want to be friend with him. You are not bad, you just have to clear out ur mind only =) My dear, dont be unhappy because of him since he not worth this price. Try to treat him as ur friend if u can get over, but if u cant, then just treat him as a guy you know a bit more than a stranger. But sure i wish that u two can be friend back.
ReplyDeleteThese days i also feel not so good, but is because of my classmates, they dont really like to study, and everytime only try to get exam questions. But what i persuade myself is, mind my own business since there is no harm for me.
It's hard to be happy if we care too much. This is what i realized and I tried to get over it. Progressing now =) Be happy alright, my dearest! I am always here for you!!
I'm sorry my dear, so late only reply you..
ReplyDeleteI'm terribly busy this week (of course, not busy as you hehheee)
for him, I don't wanna think so much ady...
But I'll just remind myself if possible, treat him like friends..
Today I had my first english debate..
A parliamentary style one...
Was so so soooo nervous and
because of some communication problems,
I finished my script writing 10 minutes before debate...
OMG! you just can't imagine how panic I was..
And my opponents were PRO!
Firstly, they're profficient in english...
Secondly, they're people who are good at debate, and one of them was state representative for debate before...OMG!
Heheeee anyway, it's over!
And I'm really happy that the script I wrote last night( It was my script, and I gave it to my member to do conclusion)
was praised by a few people! :D
Heeee although they don't know it's me did that,
but I'm really satisfied with those compliments! :D
Ok la today is an excellent day,
because debate that stressed me out for a few days is over!
and tomorrow,
I'm having holiday! Gonna enjoy tonight!
and start my assignment tomorrow!
Wanna live my life with simple and pure mind! :)